I'm made of scars..............

Was sitting in the park this evening......trying to look at the stars......clouds covered most of the darkness.....

Somehow I could see a few of the stars.....they make me feel that I am so insignificant....

I mean they didn't make me feel that way all along.......oh how I wish I hadn't read A Brief History of Time.......read so much about these damn stars......how big they are...what happens if they die....what goes on inside a star....dammit!!! Makes me feel so not important.....so worthless for the whole point of being a being..........

Sometimes I get the thought ........is there another person like me staring at the stars from some different dimension??

I mean why can't it be true....why can't aliens exist???....we exist....so why not another planet like the Earth.....having another Star like the Sun at the very same location as the setting is in the Solar System???

There must be someone out there who look at us all the time and babble giberrish in there own languages about us.....sometimes they might even say "Look Ma!!!There's the alien I told you about!!!"

Hmmmm.............so I got up....thinking about all the worthless thoughts going on in my mind about me being worthless.....about our existence being a precious jewel......was listening to Motorhead.......they surely were proving there existence!!

All these days going by.......me doing nothin but joking around, trying to be the funny guy, trying to make people smile....I realise that there is more to give to the world than just being funny.........

I kind of get the idea that I need to do something that will mark my existence on this planet........that will say "THIS ACT OF ________ IS DONE BY ONLY ANUSHTUP AND NO OTHER"...........just have to find a suitable word for the blank........

Right now its anger.........I am truly, madly, deeply in anger with the world..........somebody said to me once "How can you be in anger with something???...You can be in love....but how does anger fit in???"

Gotto prove many of them around me wrong......

You might ask...."What is the source of your anger??"..............to that I have no answer.....I guess I just want to be the most hated person alive!!!!

So three cheers to our existence(and maybe doom in the later part of life)..........HIP HIP....aaaaaaaaaaaaa fuck it!!!!

Gonna close this post......and ponder over my thoughts.....I am pretty sure some of you might want to stop me from thinking for the rest of my life......well screw your 'A's in the righteous fashion......I don't care!!!!

Back to madness.....

I am here again. Back on the road again. No idea what to write. Well first of all how to write. People just go on talking in English, and when nobody's looking they just screw the language in its righteous 'A'. I mean come on......WHAT THE HELL IS 'PRO-NOUN-CIATION'??

Was thinking one fine day....when I was thinking what to think....this idea popped into my head...what's another word for thesaurus??....walrus??Naah....it just rhymed and seemed funny in my head......

Went to a mall the other day.....there was this No Admission door on one end......under the No Admission sign it said : THIS DOOR IS NOT TO BE USED AS AN EXIT OR AN ENTRANCE.............then what.....as a surfboard??or maybe a stunt double for a magic carpet??

Then there is the case of punctuation marks..........miss one tiny comma.....and there goes your meaning out of the window : ANIMALS DRIVE SLOWLY

I got myself a juice bottle......don't remember the name.....the new one available in the market....some bloody really really sweet orange juice.....the label on the side of the bottle said:100% pure all-natural fresh-squeezed juice from concentrate.................hell yeah!

Aaaah......who am I to comment on other people's crap English.....I will just close this post here and return to my daily dose of music........

Will try to blog regularly........

Until then......just memorize all my posts.......